Time bomb

Needs to grow up, be a lady and move on to another stage of life. I'm not good at this but there's this persuasive reaction hitting me telling me not to be a paranoid. Probably I hide all sorts of things to myself, like everything. Then I become a time bomb just waiting for that trigger. Bloody hell I'm like 21 going 22 in December. Lets say we're all getting on another level of puberty. I wonder how do I look in the next 10 years. Would I be abandoned because of my aged face or be more attractive because of what people say women's highest attractive level as they age. Teeheee anyhoos shit everyone is entering the working arena now and I realize I would as well in just a bit, not too late I suppose for living under my parent's shell for whole 22 years gahh. Thanks mommie daddy. Looking at the related jobs of my seniors, I presume I won't be having a decent 8 hours but 23 hours job. Life, accept it. 

* I won't be emotional anymore unless you push the limits because I want to trust you.

Breakdown

Somethings are meant not to be told because it has already been spoken at the very beginning. I can't be telling again, it will only remain in my heart of what has happened, maybe because I wasn't actually allowed to know it but fate just let me came upon this shit. I am trying hard, hard that I prefer just to shut up before being too impulsive and blow my mind off. When I don't ask, its because I don't want to know the truth because truth hurts. So don't ask. There's nothing much to be done unless only you realize what is causing the breakdown and then change. however, my assumption is you won't realize because you care less and so ignorant in every single thing. I'll just be okay until I can overcome this. I do not know when will I get tired of this but you will know when I really do.

Dear blog, what else can be done? Things aren't getting any better and there are just more & more things coming. Life sucks.

Game is on

What is the point of a relationship when there is no trust & words just were not kept to at least sustain the relationship. Really, cracking up my brains to figure this out in the middle of the night without a proper answer. One thing I figured, let's just play this game.

Yeap thats right

Its the day where the country's destiny will be determined.
Its also the day I realize my instincts were right.