DilemmaS

Heylo peeps.

Its a happy day for me today because it marks the last day of my first internship. I've been very lethargic lately for these past months I can barely take some time for a good night sleep and the air just seems un-breathable. Like finally, I can sleep as much as I want.This is pure torture for me because sleeping is actually one of my favourite routine. The reason being is I always feel I do not have enough time for myself. 24hours just seem insufficient to complete daily tasks, do favourite activities or spend it with my loved ones. Well, just incase you think I'm bragging away with the high amount of good friends I have, I'm putting it in a way that there are just different groups of friends you have to hang with because these times are hard to come by. I am just those sort of people that goes along with the plan and my friends are really important to me because I feel like I am myself with them. Okay, i'm drifting away to some other matters now. Alright, so my point is the year is coming to an end but there are so much yet to do, so much to spend, so many plans to work on and so little time to fulfill them. Dilemma.

At times, all I really want is a break, some time-out moments where I can be drifted away from everything and everyone. That sounds a little selfish but actually it works really well to take a rest after a whole year of running around the bush with no stop. I spend time pleasing others till there's too little time for myself. Gosh, don't judge me please because I am just expressing this in depth fret I feel at certain times, like during my shower. Do I have to keep going on like this or just put a stop to it and continue my journey as a carefree person? Dilemma.

Then here comes my bits and pieces of resolutions that I am yet to fulfill but there's still a slight possibility to achieve it. I know this sounds so bimbo and hopeless but do you guys think that a lady should own at least a very branded handbag at least a time of their life? I don't know but I personally think that should be the way so a lady feels good about herself when she carries herself in that certain posture and elegance. Some would think its just a show-off to others. I'm saving hard to get myself one, I mean lately I had my eye on a pleasant and reasonable one but then expenses kept coming in and there goes my savings. I feel sinful to spend all my money just on a handbag. Ugh! Because of my fickle minded behavior, I tend to compare the benefits and reasons to buy something instead of just buying whatever that I desire, unless I have crap loads of cash. So I am still considering between travelling or buying that handbag, where travelling sounds way more useful and interesting. Dilemma.

I can't wait to go back to university in a few days time. The entire year of university in 2011 seems so happening and adventurous that it became sucha good memory. But there are some changes in 2012, well at least only I know what the changes are and I'm preparing for it. Though I still hope it stays the same and gets better but you know the journey is walked by myself and only I can change it if I want to. Its nearing my Year 3 in this course but can this be as smooth-sailing as I thought it would be since things are getting tougher. I cannot screw my studies up or I'm vanished. STUDY kat! Entertainments and studies were very balanced in 2011 but can I manage in 2012? Dilemma.

Okay, so many dilemmas already I prefer not to keep tracking or it can be of a list. Despite fretting, I know God will be by my side and provide opening ways for me to continue my journey.

Happy New Year 2012! :)