Smile Indulgence: I love my papa =)

Have you ever felt the guilt in your heart that forces your tear glands out from your eyes at a sudden?

I totally felt it today after a very very bad dream this morning. I don't know what time it started but when my eyes were opened,its 8am...

The dream was very depressing which was about my daddy. Don't really wanna tell whats the index but its just sad.
When my dad opened the door of my room at 9 which he normally does it every morning, I quickly got up from bed and told him I had a nightmare.
Hugged him real tight. ><
He even made it a joke and asked izit that mummy whacked me with the cane..I didn't reply and just remained silent.(how jovial and positive)
After he went off to work and said goodbye to me, suddenly I burst out into tears, Lots & lots of tears.. T__T
Don't know whats wrong, but the urge is that I really appreciate my daddy. Normally, i treat him cold when he starts talking to me.

I still remember when I was a kiddo, we used to be so intimate and He's like a best friend of mine.Better than that even. Anything I want, he just dedicate anything just for me. If my mummy punished me, he would be the first to cheer me up. Even at times he used to whack me with the cane because I did something wrong(of course), I will start to be rebellious and throwing tantrums towards anyone. Then,daddy would come in and cheer me up although I was the one being naughty. I'm 16 turning 17 now.Somehow someway, I still play hide and seek with my daddy in this small cozy house of mine.Its just hiding between rooms , and I would be happy enough. When I'm being ridiculous and totally crapping, he would just laugh even it was a lame one. To him, I'm always the little girl I used to be last time. Just crossing the road now, he would start saying " Kat, hold my hand"..I wouldn't reject at all.

How can this be so true?

I really start to appreciate my daddy's sacrifice for me. After the nightmare, I felt like a total loss of someone I really loved.It was relaxing when I know its just a dumb dream.

So,I'm here to cherish all of you readers that its time to appreciate your parents now because you never know what's next.It might be too late when you really wanna appreciate in the future =)
Its been a long time since I cried but crying for good stuffs isn't that sorrowful. What I'm happy is I have a happy family now.To me, its already perfect =)