I never thought how all these scenes and thoughts can cause me an urge to throw up because of a certain pain known as lemon hearted. It has always been like this from the start, reminiscing the last time I felt it, was awhile ago. Whats lemon hearted? My definition is just imagine a wound bleeding abnormally and there goes someone squeezes some hot lemon on that hopeless wound. SUCKS, yeah thats right. Well, might as well since I deserve it from karma. No i dont believe in karma but I do believe in the term 'what you sow you shall reap' according to the bible so, shit this is causing too much heartaches.
Talking about this, I did many funny weird things that I thought I'd never touch in my life. No, I won't reveal what those are but I am putting a stop into this, for real. Guess the effects of peer pressure can be quite effective as a tool to do whatever. Honestly though I think I have good self-abstainence. Just gets stronger each time I fall. I think I made this statement to someone, that is, 'Nothing can really make me too depress anymore because when I fell, the impact was so hard that now the worst events happening around me cannot bring me down'. However, dont hit me on that cause I have a soft spot too. So, mind me if I burst.
On a happier note, its good to see new movement for you. A life owned only by yourself. Nobody knows whats priority like last time. Live according to changes, good ones. Friends.
A question I kept wondering lately. I'm getting sudden injuries and wounds lately I don't know what is happening. Its hurting me really like small cuts take a decade to heal or something. What is happening to this miserable life of mine?! Sigh.
Nights.
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